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Killers aren't always assassins. Sometimes, they don't even have blood on their hands.Ruta Sepetys
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Good men are often more practical than pretty " said Mother. "Andrius just happens to be both.Ruta Sepetys
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How did I get here How did I end up in the arms of a boy I barely knew but knew I didn't want to lose I wondered what I would have thought of Andrius in Lithuania. Would I have liked him Would he have liked meRuta Sepetys
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I felt as if I were riding a pendulum. Just as I would swing into the abyss of hopelessness, the pendulum would swing back with some small goodness.Ruta Sepetys
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...we're dealing with two devils who both want to rule hell.Ruta Sepetys
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They were happy to help someone, to succeed at something, even if they weren't to benefit.Ruta Sepetys
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I leapt eagerly into books. The characters’ lives were so much more interesting than the lonely heartbeat of my own.Ruta Sepetys
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We cannot be too cautious, Hannelore. Just because someone knocks on the door doesn't mean you have to open it. Sometimes, sweet girl, there are wolves at the door. If we are not careful, they might eat us.Ruta Sepetys
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I didn't need his criticism. I carried enough guilt on my own. I had done everything wrong. I had the highest marks in school but couldn't master common sense.Ruta Sepetys
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What did I want? I wanted the war to be over so I could ask her out.Ruta Sepetys
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Just when you think this war has taken everything you loved, you meet someone and realize that somehow you still have more to give.Ruta Sepetys
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The soldier stared at Ingrid. His silence was elastic, slowly curling a rope around her neck.Ruta Sepetys
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Revolting. If women were so careless to become pregnant at such a time, let women sort it out.Ruta Sepetys
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Sometimes there is such beauty in awkwardness.Ruta Sepetys
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Mother, why are you breaking your beautiful things?' I asked...' Because I love them so much.Ruta Sepetys
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Everyone has a price, ” she said.“ But clearly not everyone has a soul,Ruta Sepetys
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I knew the legends of the birds. Seagulls were the souls of dead soldiers. Owls were the souls of women. Doves were the recently departed souls of unmarried girls. Was there a bird for the souls of people like me?Ruta Sepetys
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Every nation has hidden history, countless stories preserved only by those who experienced them. Stories of war are often read and discussed worldwide by readers whose nations stood on opposite sides during battle. History divided us, but through reading we can be united in story, study, and remembrance. Books join us together as a global reading community, but more important, a global human community striving to learn from the past. .Ruta Sepetys
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War had bled color from everything, leaving nothing but a storm of gray.Ruta Sepetys
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In 1991, after fifty years of brutal occupation, the three Baltic countries regained their independence, peacefully and with dignity. They chose hope over hate and showed the world that even through the darkest night, there is light. These three tiny nations have taught us that love is the most powerful army. Whether love of a friend, love of country, love of God, or even love of enemy- love reveals to us the truly miraculous nature of the human spirit. .Ruta Sepetys
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What had human beings become? Did war make us evil or just activate an evil already lurking within us?Ruta Sepetys
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My war had been so long, my winter so cold. But i had made it home. And for the first time in a long time, i was not afraid.Ruta Sepetys
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I wanted to stay locked away from the pain and destruction. I didn't want to be strong. I didn't want to be the 'smart girl'. I was so very tired. I just wanted it all to be over.Ruta Sepetys
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Mother was anchor. Mother was comfort. Mother was home. A girl who lost her mother was suddenly a tiny boat on an angry ocean. Some boats eventually floated ashore. And some boats, like me, seemed to float farther and farther from land.Ruta Sepetys
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But unlike Mama, I would not go to heaven. My secrets padlocked the gates. I'd be a torn kite stuck in the dead branches of a tree, unable to fly.Ruta Sepetys
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War is catastrophe. It breaks families in irretrievable pieces. But those who are gone are not necessarily lost.Ruta Sepetys
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Your daughter, your sister. She is salt to the sea,Ruta Sepetys
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How foolish to believe we are more powerful than the sea or the sky.Ruta Sepetys
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There's a saying, 'Death hath a thousand doors to let out life; I shall find one.' But the children. That's what I struggle with.' He shook his head. 'Why the children?Ruta Sepetys
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But wasn't there some sort of rule that said parents had to be smarter than their kids? It didn't seem fair.Ruta Sepetys
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But how can they just decide that we're animals? They don't even know us, " I said." We know us, " said Mother. "They're wrong. And don't ever allow them to convince you otherwise. Do you understand?Ruta Sepetys
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It's safer for you to stay with the others, ' he said. Safer? He didn't realize. I was already dead.Ruta Sepetys
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They got everything money can buy, their bank accounts are fat, but they ain't happy. They ain't ever gonna be happy. You know why? They soul broke. And money can't fix that, no sir.Ruta Sepetys
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Mother was comfort. Mother was home. A girl who lost her mother was suddenly a tiny boat on an angry ocean. Some boats eventually floated ashore. And some boats, like me, seemed to float farther and farther from landRuta Sepetys
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My husband, Andrius, says that evil will rule until good men or women choose to act. I believe him. This testimony was written to create an absolute record, to speak in a world where our voices have been extinguished. These writing may shock or horrify you, but that is not my intention. It is my greatest hope that the pages in this jar stir your deepest well of human compassion. I hope they prompt you to do something, to tell somone. Only then can we ensure that this kind of evil is never allowed to repeat itself. .Ruta Sepetys
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You stand for what is right, Lina, without the expectation of gratitude or reward.Ruta Sepetys
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Sometimes kindness can be delivered in a clumsy way. But it's far more sincere in its clumsiness than those distinguished men you read about in books. Your father was very clumsy.”" Sometimes there is such beauty in awkwardness. There's love and emotion trying to express itself, but at the time, it just ends up being awkward. Good men are often more practical than pretty . [He] just happens to be both. .Ruta Sepetys
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They have a baby grand piano, but no one in the family plays. They have shelves of books they've never read, and the tension between the couples was so thick it nearly choked us.Ruta Sepetys
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I stared at the enormous homes, the landscaping and flower beds immaculate. It was as if dollar bills, instead of leaves, hung from the trees.Ruta Sepetys
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Light fell, and so did my confidence.Ruta Sepetys
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No Son [.. .] Not a traitor to your country. Much worse. A traitor to your soul.Ruta Sepetys
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Death, it seems, has a mind of its own.Ruta Sepetys
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My arm began moving, turning the invisible crank of Death's music box. Somewhere inside, I didn't want the melody to end.Ruta Sepetys
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I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.Ruta Sepetys
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We sat and drank in silence. It was something I appreciated about Jesse. He didn't feel the need to fill every moment with talk or some sort of silly exchange.Ruta Sepetys
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A guilty conscience is not worth extra food.Ruta Sepetys
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We pushed to the edge of recklessness, yet I felt safe.Ruta Sepetys
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Per aspera ad astra, Papa, ' I whispered. Through hardship to the stars.Ruta Sepetys
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He wrapped his arms around me and planted a kiss straight on my lips, hard and long. It felt like I was watching the kiss instead of being inside of it.Ruta Sepetys
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Well, I don't know, Lina. But let's just say I've met a lot of dead people.Ruta Sepetys
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Tadas was sent to the principal today, " announced Jonas at dinner. He wedged a huge piece of sausage into his small mouth." Why?" I asked." Because he talked about hell, " sputtered Jonas, juice from the plump sausage dribbling down his chin." Jonas, don't speak with your mouth full. Take smaller pieces, " scolded Mother."Sorry, " said Jonas with his moth stuffed. "It's good." He finished chewing. I took a bite of sausage. It was warm and the skin was deliciously salty." Tadas told one of the girls that hell is the worst place ever and there's no escape for all eternity."" Now why would Tadas be talking of hell?" asked Papa, reaching for the vegetables." Because his father told him that if Stalin comes to Lithuania, we'll all end up there.Ruta Sepetys
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And she didn't judge nobody. She loved everyone equal- accountants, queers, musicians, she welcomed us all, said we were all idiots just the same.Ruta Sepetys
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The only reason I'd lift my skirt is to pull a pistol and plug you in the head.Ruta Sepetys
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He wanted to know something about me. I leaned over and put my mouth to his ear. It was barely a whisper.' I'm a murderer.Ruta Sepetys
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Perhaps tomorrow I would actually put pen to paper.Ruta Sepetys
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He threw his burning cigarette onto our clean living room floor and ground it into the wood with his boot. We were about to become cigarettes.Ruta Sepetys
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What determines how we remember history and which elements are preserved and penetrate the collective consciousness? If historical novels stir your interest, pursue the facts, history, memories, and personal testimonies available. These are the shoulders that historical fiction sits upon. When the survivors are gone we must not let the truth disappear with them. Please, give them a voice.Ruta Sepetys
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But all of the survivors had one thing in common, and that was love. They survived through love. Whether love of friend, love of country, love of God, or even love of enemy–love reveals to us the truly miraculous nature of the human spirit.Ruta Sepetys
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I don't want to see no dead body. Willie ain't in there. She put her walkin' shoes on. She gone to see the Lord.Ruta Sepetys
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All the little duckies with their heads in the water Heads in the water All the little duckies with their heads in the water Oh, such sweet little duckies.Ruta Sepetys
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I was surrounded by hundreds of drowned children, heads in the water, their little feet in the air. All the little duckies, with their heads in the water Heads in the water. It was my punishment. Honor lost. Everything lost. Shame is a hunter. My shame was all around me now.Ruta Sepetys
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We'd be trying to touch the sky from the bottom of the ocean. I realize that if we boosted one another, maybe we'd get a little closer.Ruta Sepetys
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I remembered Papa talking about Stalin confiscating peasants' land, tools, and animals. He told them what crops they would produce and how much they would be paid. I thought it was ridiculous. How could Stalin simply take something that didn't belong to him, something that a farmer and his family had worked their whole lives for? "That's communism, Lina, " Papa had said.Ruta Sepetys
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You stand for what is right, without the expectation of gratitude or reward.Ruta Sepetys
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Unless it was Cokie, gifts from men weren't free.Ruta Sepetys
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It grey louder. Louder. They were singing, singing at the top of their lungs. Andrius joined, and then my brother and the gray-haired man. And finally, the bald man joined in, singing out national anthem. 'Lithuania, land of heroes...Ruta Sepetys
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Jo, they have a baby grand piano, but no one in the family plays. They have shelves of books they've never read, and the tension between the couples was so thick it nearly choked us."" Let me tell you something 'bout those rich Uptown folk, " said Cokie. "They got everything that money can buy, their bank accounts are fat, but they ain't happy. They ain't ever gone be happy. You know why? They soul broke. And money can't fix that, no sir. My friend Bix was poor. Lord, he had to blow that trumpet ten hours a day just to put a little taste in the pot. Died poor, too. You saw him, Jo, with that plate on his chest. But that man wasn't soul broke.Ruta Sepetys
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What if this is a horrible mistake?" I croaked. "Oh, it'll be horrible fine, just a bunch of pretentious rich people with shelves of expensive books they've never read.Ruta Sepetys
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New Orleans is unlike any city in America. Its cultural diversity is woven into the food, the music, the architecture - even the local superstitions. It's a sensory experience on all levels and there's a story lurking around every corner.Ruta Sepetys