Quotes From "If I Stay" By Gayle Forman

If you stay, I'll do whatever you want. I'll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I'll do that, too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful, that maybe it'd be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I'd do it. I can lose you like that if I don't lose you today. I'll let you go. If you stay. Gayle Forman

But the you who you are tonight is the same you I was in love with yesterday, the same you I’ll be in love with tomorrow. Gayle Forman

I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It’s okay if you have to leave us. It’s okay if you want to stop fighting. Gayle Forman

Fake it 'till you make it. Gayle Forman

I remember watching it all and getting the tickling in my chest and thinking to myself: This is what happiness feels like. Gayle Forman

Adam is crying and somewhere inside of me I am crying, too, because I'm feeling things at last. I'm feeling not just the physical pain, but all that I have lost, and it is profound and catastrophic and will leave a crater in me that nothing will ever fill. Gayle Forman

Sleep would be so welcome. A warm blanket of black to erase everything else. Sleep without dreams. I've heard people talk about the sleep of the dead. Is that what death would feel like? The nicest, warmest, heaviest never-ending nap? If that's what it's like, I wouldn't mind. If that's what dying is like, I wouldn't mind that at all. Gayle Forman

Don't be scared... Women can handle the worst kind of pain. You'll find out one day. Gayle Forman

I do have a point to all this, ” she continues. “There are like twenty people in that waiting room right now. Some of them are related to you. Some of them are not. But we’re all your family.” She stops now. Leans over me so that the wisps of her hair tickle my face. She kisses me on the forehead. “You still have a family, ” she whispers. Gayle Forman

Life is a big fat gigantic stinking mess, that's the beauty of it, too. Gayle Forman

There are like twenty people in that waiting room right now. Some of them are related to you. Some of them are not. But we're all your family. She stops now. Leans over me so that wisps of her hair tickle my face. She kisses me on the forehead. You still have a family, she whispers. Gayle Forman

Dying is easy. Living is hard Gayle Forman

Mom was adamantly pro-choice. She had a bumper sticker on the car that read If you can't trust me with a choice, how can you trust me with a child? But in her case the choice was to keep me. Gayle Forman

Every fiction has its base in fact. Gayle Forman

Losing me will hurt; it will be the kind of pain that won't feel real at first, and when it does, it will take her breath away. Gayle Forman

Adam's lips are set in a grime line. I can't tell if he's about to cry or about to punch the guard. For his sake, I hope it's the former. For you own, I hope the latter. Gayle Forman

But sometimes the memories feel so real, so visceral, so personal, that I confuse them with my own. Gayle Forman

Ryan allowed himself a moment to enjoy the sight of her legs, long and muscular and indicative of her previous life as a dancer. Off-limits nannies shouldn't be allowed to have legs like that. A man could only get through so many lonely nights before he started to dream of sleek limbs wrapping around him and never letting go. Thankfully for them both, she lifted those sleek limbs away from his grasp. Out of reach, out of mind. Or at least in theory, anyway. Tamara Morgan

She scooted closer and put a hand on his leg again. He felt less like steel this time and more like a man who enjoyed the sensation of a feminine hand moving higher. "Are you taking advantage of me?" He drew in a ragged breath. "I'm trying really hard not to." She smiled and kept going, her hand squeezing as it continued its northward journey. She stopped just short of manhandling him. "Well, that makes one of us. Tamara Morgan

He shackled her with his hands, the press of his mouth ceaseless in its demands. She couldn't move, couldn't see, could barely breathe. Giving herself over to the fact that this was actually happening, that she wasn't misreading every cue in her stupid life, she ran her hands over the planes of his chest and settled more firmly against him. Tamara Morgan

Sometimes you make choices in life, and sometimes choices make you. Gayle Forman

When we got back home, Gramps dropped me off and enveloped me in a hug. Normally, he was a handshaker, maybe a back-patter on really special occasions. His hug was strong and tight, and I knew it was his way of telling me that he'd had a wonderful time.“ Me, too, Gramps, ” I whispered. Gayle Forman

But Dad looked delighted. "My Mia's singing 'Waiting for Vengeance' to my Teddy. What do you think about that? Gayle Forman

Almost don't matter. You got to deal with the situation at hand. Gayle Forman

It wasn't even a fight, really. We didn't shout. We barely even argued, but a snake of tension quietly slithered into our lives. Gayle Forman

I don't really care. I shouldn't have to care. I shouldn't have to work this hard. I realize now that dying is easy. Living is hard. Gayle Forman

If I stay. If I live. It’s up to me. All this business about medically induced comas is just doctor talk. It’s not up to the doctors. It’s not up to the absentee angels. It’s not even up to God who, if He exists, is nowhere around right now. It’s up to me. Gayle Forman

Look I accept Adam because you love him. And I assume he accepts me because you love me...your love binds us.'... The funny thing was, I never really bought into Kim's notion that they were somehow bound together through me- until just now when I saw her half carrying him down the hospital corridor. Gayle Forman

Sometimes I did feel like I came from a different tribe. I was not like my outgoing, ironic dad or my tough-chick mom. And as if to seal the deal, instead of learning to play electric guitar, I'd gone and chosen the cello. Gayle Forman

But seventeen is an inconvenient time to be in love. Gayle Forman

In a funny way, Dad was always a bow-tie wearer, always a little more traditional than you might imagine. Because even though he had blue hair and tattoos and wore leather jackets and worked in a record store, he wanted to marry Mom back at a time when the rest of their friends were still having drunken one-night stands. "Girlfriend is such a stupid word, " he said. "I couldn't stand calling her that. So, we had to get married, so I could call her "wife"'. Gayle Forman