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Alone with my wine and my misery, I was convinced that life was composed of a string of “if only’s” leading from one self-inflicted bungle to the next until at some point, one’s final iteration of the excuse became one’s final utterance, and one expired.Andrew Levkoff
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The past is set down in a thousand thousand indelible scrolls. But the future is a blank parchment forever in wait of a present.Andrew Levkoff
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Children–their untroubled, idyllic vision of the future is almost always shattered. Sooner or later they learn what all youth must–that life is the cruel fate that awaits them while they make plans for a tomorrow that will never be.Andrew Levkoff
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Strange, is it not, how even those of us who scoff at divine intervention will fall to our knees and clasp our hands the moment we realize our futures are defined by uncertainty and hazard. A thoughtful man would never leave his knees. A wise man would never drop to them. In any case, it wasn’t really a prayer, but one does like to follow convention now and then.Andrew Levkoff
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He wore the memory of her embrace like armor, and though he knew it would not save his life, it would be all that was left to him to ease his passage into whatever lay beyond.Andrew Levkoff
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Since my arrival in Rome, I have had many opportunities to wonder if compassion’s opposite is cruelty, or to reflect whether or not indifference would serve as a better black to its white.Andrew Levkoff
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We would soon be on our way to war, where mercy is unwise and kindness has no place.Andrew Levkoff
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Why can’t I remember that not once have I ever seen a coin, whether grimy copper or bright gold, that had but one side.Andrew Levkoff
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One has to be at least as ancient as I am now to see that if you try to make sense of life, if you look for patterns and meaning, not only are you bound to be disappointed, you are likely to waste a good deal of precious time.Andrew Levkoff
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They say in moments of great fear or desperation, a man will always make a choice–either to flee or face his enemy, but choice requires thought, and in the moment when you know for certain that death is stalking you with strides you cannot outrun, there is no time for thought. You do not choose. Like Betto, or Malchus, or Valens, you act, doing either one thing or the other.Andrew Levkoff
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Ignorance is an underrated virtue, my lord.Andrew Levkoff
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I don’t care how smart you are. You’ll never understand how little you really know until you’ve had a woman.Andrew Levkoff
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I think about that centurion from time to time and wonder, had he retired to a farm in Campagna, happy with his harvest of grapes and grandchildren, or had he fallen amongst his comrades on some distant, ruined field, defending the honor and the ever-expanding borders of the Republic? What we foreigners have failed to comprehend over the centuries is that the proud centurion would have found either fate equally satisfying. This is why Rome grows, and the rest of the world shrinks.Andrew Levkoff
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Pride costs nothing, yet it is especially precious when it can be “purchased” at someone else’s expense.Andrew Levkoff
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Yes, I have a romantic nature; it is a character flaw which should be viewed with pity, not derision.Andrew Levkoff
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It is a terrible thing to witness death by violence, a thousand times worse to hold a man’s life in your own hands and to willingly, consciously take it from him. Acknowledged or not, something noble has been scoured from your insides, never to be replaced. You saved a friend’s life, and there lies ample justification. But never peace, never balance, never the same. At least that is how it seems to me.Andrew Levkoff
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It is laughable how often good manners interfere with my survival.Andrew Levkoff
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Some men simply refuse to appear insulted. But then, having felt the sting from the slap on their cheek, know just where to slip the knife, their smile never fading.Andrew Levkoff
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It is we who move through time, not the reverse. When we walk beyond any one of life’s instants, it becomes nothing more than a receding milestone. We can look back, but we cannot retrace our steps. The past remains stationary, while we are doomed to move ever onwards. To do otherwise is against nature.Andrew Levkoff
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I advise, however, moderation in this task of setting goals, or else risk becoming tangled up in a Gordian knot of life’s many disappointments.Andrew Levkoff
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There is no such thing as unrequited love; the phrase ought to be stricken from the lexicon. Love is a thing shared, an intertwining of essential separateness into something not quite alone. There is nothing like it under the heavens. Like bread, it will not be made with flour or water alone; the recipe requires both. Guarding each other’s vulnerability provides the yeast that makes it rise, and salt from the tears that caring brings lends the finishing touch.Andrew Levkoff
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Oh, the unintended consequences of perfidy!Andrew Levkoff