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I had a dream about you. It's been a while since I could remember any of my dreams, and still, this one has left me with such strong impression. Even now, when I am fully awake, your face flashes before my eyes. It's a face I can totally relate to, as if it wasn't any more yours than it is mine. Terrifying thing, you know? I can't say I've felt that sort of intimacy with anyone. For a moment you knew all my secrets, without me even having to tell them. For a moment I even knew them myself… While I was looking into your eyes, I suddenly started to realize things about myself that were unspoken for years, like fragments of my inner life that were deeply repressed. It’s hard to distinguish if they were buried inside because dealing with them was such a dirty work, or if leaving them unnamed meant that it was not possible to define them precisely enough, so they would keep their true meaning. Perhaps, all this life that I've known so far was in fact no more but a dream about living. The only thing that has kept me in touch with reality was you… I know it comes as a surprise, and you may be wondering why it took me so long to come clean. You also may be wondering how come you've never noticed before. I've tricked you on purpose, yes, and you must realize it really has nothing to do with you. It’s always been me. This is why, seeing you in my dream like that, came out as a shock. You also must forgive me. You must forgive me because I know how it looks like, that everything we ever shared was a lie, and it wasn't… I am more of an illusionist that a deceiver, but it all comes from being in fact, a very private person. Even if it was true that you knew me better than anyone, I’d never admit it. I’d rather dig my own heart out, with a rotten spoon, than admitting it. I may let people in my own little world occasionally, but I would never let them be aware of it. I don’t throw my intimacy in front of others, especially when I care. The more I care, the less I give away, and this is something for you to understand, and grant me your forgiveness. I didn't play my tricks on you in order to deceive you, but rather to save myself, and maybe even deceive myself as well. I’ve had hidden my feelings for you so deeply that I've learned to live with them, as if any other casualty. I have done wrong to myself as much as I did to you, and I don’t know if I can forgive myself. So now I wonder, could you forgive me without feeling sorry for me? I certainly don’t deserve your pity. Especially not now that I am awake.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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They say the silence is the language of God, but so is music. This is why we dance, we become loud in our silence.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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When you silence your mind, faith walks in.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I had a dream about you. Again. In fact I've had so many dreams about you that I can almost feel your skin under my fingertips and your breath every time we kiss. This time when you pulled me closer, even though I couldn’t see you, I knew it was you. I've heard your footsteps, and recognized them instantly. I’d recognize them anywhere, among many others. The way I yearn for you, you are always expected. And now I expect you to do just that. Kiss me. This time I am asking for it, because I need to make sure I am awake. .Aleksandra Ninkovic
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All our emotions are real, but one has to be quite cautious with what supports their reality.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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The moment we refuse to hurt others because of our own pain, is the time we evolve as souls.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Those who intend to destroy me, underestimate my ability to regenerate.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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The less you feed the ego, the stronger you will be.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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When I hear that people live by the book, I always wonder which one.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Heart beats are marching like thousands of drums, Birds find their flight, thrown out of nest, We win some battles, then we lose some, Truth is no more than illusion at best. What has been said under veil of the night, Under the veil it will ever remain, But may it ever be in my right, I know i have never said it in vain.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Robin Williams is one more example, that genius people are genius for a reason, and that reason is feeling without reasoning. Depression is for sensitive people. Sensitive people sense the world as it is, and they can't cope with it. Sensitive people need a better, more tender world to live in. Matter of fact, we all do.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I don't trust people. The good part is, i don't really have to. I've surrendered my faith to the Higher power, and it's unconditional love for me. Who am i to question it's motives? Even if there are things i can't understand. This is why there's no need to trust people - if they are on my path, it means they are good for me.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I had a dream about you. In my dreams you are always different, perhaps even more real to me. How can I explain this to you? It seems like in my dreams I envision parts of you that you prefer keep under surface. You hide from me, as if there was something to hide. You push me away, in fear. Now, I know you are not afraid of me, but that you can’t trust yourself, since it’s beyond your control. I know it’s frightening to love someone that much. I know it because I am afraid, too. And I just wish that for once, we would be afraid together.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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By not letting me turn you into something you're not, you've helped me be more of myself.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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We don't know predestined ways, or what future might behold, someone leaves, someone remains, and new things replace the old. We don't know a thing for sure, what's today, is there tomorrow? Yet, somehow we still endure, through those moments filled with sorrow. Can we really be mistaken, trying just the best we can?something's given and some taken, never knowing how nor when. We don't know that much, it's true, life's a mystery divine, a day came, when i lost you, treasured guiding star of mine. .Aleksandra Ninkovic
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You remain so silent, as carried away, through mist of your thoughts, so dark and so deep, and even awake same as when asleep, waiting for enlightenment of a newborn day. I'm bound to your silence, to the core i'm bound, to delicate stillness, so cruel and so tender, that despite of danger, soul yearns to surrender, to that mesmerizing absence of the sound. I resign everything i once knew so clear, throwing in the wind fragments of my past, they are worth so little, they're nothing but dust, nothing to remember, and nothing to fear..Aleksandra Ninkovic
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People relate giving to reciprocity. They expect things to be expressed in a way they can understand, which is usually their own.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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If you have to shout to prove your point, you're probably wrong.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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When a man takes good care of the woman, she takes care of his competitors.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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You went from my life right into my dreams, i can hardly tell, If i'm cursed or blessed ;I am sure things aren't always as they seem, but i drift away, mesmerized, possessed. Memories i have uncertain and fragile, Is what i have left and i have no peace, At dawn fades away, all that i imagine, i crave for your closeness, i need more then this. Perhaps you are meant to guide and inspire, to be ever timeless in the veil of mist, flowing through my being in flaming desire, the one i can't reach and cannot resist. My darling, unique, outstanding perfection, so utterly complex you can't be recreated, I may be unworthy of your smallest fraction, But you've never loved, nor anticipated. Every great passion is a work of fiction, when we long for something that we cannot find, Single thought of you is like an addiction, yet, you're not exalted, except in my mind.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Daybreak has extraordinary hypnotizing influence, On us, idealistic observers. When red sun slowly reveals on the rivers surface, like in a mirror, It reminds of two lovers embracing, Just by looking into each others eyes. In such deep and serious commitment, Without unnecessary words, That spoil the instant of confidence. Water is not stopping it's course, Neither does the sun. That's what makes it so exceptional, So magnificent. The only tie is their gentle admiration, As their love is greater than space separating. And who ever had the chance, to witness that, just once, Shouldn't say he haven't found God. .Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I like you. Therefore I will decorate you with qualities you don't have.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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If people would take me seriously, I’d never find out anything significant about them.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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It's far more important why is being said, than what.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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We always get help we ask for. "Knock and the door will open" Make sure it's the right door.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Fog is more dangerous than dark, as it gives the illusion of seeing.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Today I am amused, and I haven't seen anyone yet.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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The only thing that keeps me going, is the desire to get away as far as possible.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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It's an easy guess, why some get famous over night and not during the day.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Love is blind. Especially in the morning, because I can't see a damn thing before having coffee.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I think I must have invented you on one of those days I was really bored.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I'm not trying to put you down, but even if I did, you'd have nowhere to go.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Writing is easy. Saying something that would make a difference is the task.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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I will fight for you, and if you know me well enough, you know i am pretty darn good at winning.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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It is by giving the freedom to the other, that is by letting go, we gain our own freedom back.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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We always get help we ask for.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Let it all go to waste… For what I long for, I’m bound to resign! Bittersweet is, like the taste of wine, This Love’s captivating taste. Let my heart be tormented by wonder It will never manage to attain. On my window symphony of rain, Open seas resound in strikes of thunder. Let my soul be lost, ‘til Sun is set, And be found reborn within its death, I surrender the very last breath, Confessing my sins with no regret. Let it all go to waste, indeed. For with or without it, the sentence is pain. Therefore, in my stillness, silenced will remain, Everlasting dream and consuming need. .Aleksandra Ninkovic
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Divine does not tempt us to see what's in our hearts, it tempts us so we could see what's in our hearts.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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My wit is only as stupid as the audience.Aleksandra Ninkovic
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If you can't be yours while being mine, maybe you aren't as yours as you'd like to convince yourself that you are.Aleksandra Ninkovic