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There are so many things that demand to be said. Where did you go? Do you ever think about me? You've ruined me. Are you okay? But of course, I can't say any of that.Gayle Forman
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You dumb-ass, " I crooned, kissing her on the forehead. "You don't share me. You own me.Gayle Forman
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Whoever said that the past isn't dead had it backward. It's the future that's already dead, already played out.Gayle Forman
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So, this is how it's become? This is how I've become? A walking contradiction? I'm surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy but now that I have some, it's like I don't know what to do with it, I don't know how to be a normal person anymore.Gayle Forman
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But still, I find the need to remind myself of the temporariness of a day, to reassure myself that I got through yesterday, I'll get through today.Gayle Forman
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It's my turn to see you through, ' she whispers, coming back to me and wrapping me in her blanket as I lose my shit all over again. She holds me until I recover my Y chromosome.Gayle Forman
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In the calculus of feelings, you never really know how one person's absence will affect you more than another's.Gayle Forman
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I force my eyes upward and look at Mia for the first time. She's still beautiful. Not in an obvious Vanessa LeGrande or Bryn Shraeder kind of way. In a quiet way that's always been devastating to me. Her hair, long and dark, is down now, swimming damply against her bare shoulders, which are still milky white and covered with the constellation of freckles that I used to kiss. The scar on her left shoulder, the one that used to be an angry red weld is silvery pink now. Almost like the latest rage in tattoo accessories. Almost pretty.Gayle Forman
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We stand there for a moment, staring at each other, savoring it. And then all at once, we slam together. Mia's legs are off the ground, wrapped around my waist, her hands dipping in my hair, my hands tangled in hers. And our lips. There isn't enough skin, enough spit, enough time, for the lost years that our lips are trying to make up for as they find each other. We kiss. The electric current switches to high. The lights throughout all of Brooklyn must be surging.Gayle Forman
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But that's the thing with death. The whisper of it descent travels fast and wide, and people must've know I'd become a corpse because nobody even came to view the body.Gayle Forman
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She said it was because one day I was going to have to go through a metamorphosis like a caterpillar transforming into a butterfly and that scared me, so butterflies scared me.Gayle Forman
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Concert' doesn’t mean standing up like a target in front of thousands of strangers. It means coming together. It means harmony.Gayle Forman
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After that, I became kind of fascinated by her and by what I guessed was her ability to hear music in the silence. Back then, I'd wanted to be able to do that, too. So I took to watching her play, and though I told myself the reason for my attention was because she was as dedicated a musician as I was and that she was cute, the truth was that I also wanted to understand what she heard in the silence.Gayle Forman
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We were all forged in the crucible.Gayle Forman
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I'm not sure if the question's rhetorical or if she thinks I have a clue to her metaphysical mystery. And I'm in no state to answer either way because I'm crying. I don't realize it till I taste the sale against my lips. I can't remember the last time I've cried but, once I accept the mortification of sniveling like a baby, the floodgates open and I'm sobbing now, in front of Mia. In front of the whole damn world.Gayle Forman
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How is it possible that a boyfriend ceases to exist from one day to another?Gayle Forman
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My chips are all cashed out. There's nothing to lose. Or maybe I've already lost it and found it, and whatever else there might be to lose...Gayle Forman
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It's just one day, one twenty-four-hour period to get yourself through. - AdamGayle Forman
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Letting go. Everyone talks about it like it's the easiest thing.Gayle Forman
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She looks at me, square in the eye. Taking aim. And then she pulls the trigger. “Because I hated you.” The wind, the noise, it all just goes quiet for a second, and I’m left with a dull ringing in my ear, like after a show, like after a heart monitor goes to flatline.“ Hated me? WGayle Forman
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A journey of 1, 000 miles starts with just 10 digits.Gayle Forman
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A journey of a thousand miles starts with just ten digits.Gayle Forman
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For my first recital ever, they gave me a cello. And for this one, they gave me you.Gayle Forman
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I don't hate you. I don't think I ever really did. It was just anger. And once I faced it head-on, once understood it, it dissipated. -MiaGayle Forman
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I'm surrounded by people and feel aloneGayle Forman
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Everyone has hardship in their life. Everyone has pain.Gayle Forman
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Pictures can be pretty deceptive.Gayle Forman
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Quitting’s not hard. Deciding to quit is hard. Once you make that mental leap, the rest is easy.”“ Really? Was that how you quit me?” And just like that, without thinking, without saying it in my head first, without arguing with myself for days, it’s out there.“ So, ” she says, as if speaking to an audience under the bridge. “He finally says it.Gayle Forman
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Even though I think that Mia and I have enough secrets between the two of us at this pointGayle Forman
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I'll be your mess, you be mine That was the deal that we had signedGayle Forman