Quotes From "This Is Not A Test" By Courtney Summers

I hope I’m the ghost that belongs to her. Courtney Summers

I am so sad. I am so sad it makes me heavier than the sum of my parts. I shift, restless, but it doesn’t help. It’s like–time. All this time in here is on me, has its hooks in me. Maybe if I sleep more, I’ll wake up and I’ll feel different, but I can’t. The storm is really happening now and it makes the room feel emptier. Makes me feel emptier. Courtney Summers

I thought it could be something, I mean, eventually." Harrison finally looks at us. "My life I thought-but I mean.. it's nothing."" Don't cry" Grace says. "You have a lot of time."" No, I don't."" Yeah, you do."" No.-"" Yeah! Yeah, you do. It's okay. Look-"She does something that is so amazingly selfless and also gross. She tilts Harrison's face up and gives him a sweet kiss on the lips and it lasts long enough for him to taste her back, to move his mouth against hers. Harrison stares at her dumbfounded but he's stopped crying She is so nice. Courtney Summers

I wish I could break this window. Step through it. But I can't break this window. I can't even find some less dramatic way to die inside of this school, like hanging myself or slitting my wrists, because what would they do with my body? It might put everyone at risk. I won't let myself do that. I'm not selfish like Lily.I hate her. I hate her so much my heart tries to crawl out of my throat but it gets stuck there and beats crazily in the too narrow space. I bring my hands to my neck and try to massage it back down. I pres so heard against the skin, my eyes sting, and then I'm hurrying back down the stairs, back to the first floor. I think of Trace running laps, something he can control. . Courtney Summers

I’m sorry, ” he tells me. I sit down on the bed. He returns to the view of the street below. I follow his gaze and I see the infected walking slowly back and forth.“ It’s okay, ” I say.“ Okay, ” he says. He nods. “Good.”He puts the gun under his chin and pulls the trigger. Courtney Summers

I will see my father in every anger. Courtney Summers

I think you're crazy good at this survival stuff, Cary."His shoulders sag. He gives me a small, relieved smile and we start walking again, his step a little lighter than it was before. It feels strange to have that kind of power over someone." I mean, you're crazy good at it for a stoner who couldn't seem to get his shit together academically at all, " I add. Courtney Summers