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Why do I keep evading my work? Is it because I’m afraid of being confronted by my lack of abilities?Candace Bushnell
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Don’t you ever get scared?” I ask.“ Of what?” She says.“ Of not being good enough.”“ You mean at writing?” L’il asks. I nod. “What if I’m the only one who thinks I can do it and no one else does? What if I’m fooling myself-““ Oh, Carrie.” She smiles. “Don’t you know that every writer feels that way? Fear is part of the job.Candace Bushnell
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Why shouldn’t I? I demand silently. Why shouldn’t I become a famous writer? Like Norman Mailer. Or Philip Roth. And F. Scott Fitzgerald and Hemmingway and all those other men. Why can’t I be like them? I mean, what is the point of becoming a writer if no one reads what you’ve written? Damn Viktor Greene and The New School. Why do I have to keep proving myself all of the time? Why can’t I be like L’il, with everyone praising and encouraging me? Or Rainbow, with her sense of entitlement. I bet Viktor Greene never asked Rainbow why she wanted to be a writer. Or what if- I wince- Viktor Greene is right? I’m not a writer after all.Candace Bushnell