1
I hear the word in the hallover and over again. Suicide. Suicide. Suicide. Did he or didn’t he? Everyone’s got a guess. Still no one knows for sure, except Gabe, but he’s not talking. Why does it even matter? He’s gone. His, ours, theirs– blame needs a place. His, ours, theirs– pain all over the place. His, ours, theirs– forgiveness missing from this place.Lisa Schroeder
2
Three boys. Three deaths. One school. We've made the national news. Is out school cursed? Are we a reckless bunch of fools? The media asks questions no one can answer. Kids can't stop crying.Lisa Schroeder
3
I'm glad for the rain... It's good camouflage.Lisa Schroeder
4
See that's exactly why I don't want a dog." "Why?" "Because it'll just die." "Everybody dies, Brooklyn." Like that makes it okay or something.Lisa Schroeder
5
Ill lose myself in the pain. It might not make sense. But it works.Lisa Schroeder
6
After Lucca died, everything shut down. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't talk. Somehow they got me on the plane and back home.Lisa Schroeder
7
And what I think is thatwhen you’re completely aloneand deep inside yourselfwith feelings no one else can understand, there really aren’t a hundred places to go. It’s like if I woke up one dayand looked outside and saw purple treesand red grass and green dogs, is there anyone I could tell who would understand? No.There’d be no one. It’s exactly like that. He saw purple treesand red grass and green dogswhile no one else did. Â And maybe, he just got tiredof seeing them.Lisa Schroeder
8
And years from now, you may not remember exactly what you ate. But you’ll remember who you ate with.Lisa Schroeder
9
I know. You can be fine, and then, out of nowhere, a memory blindsides you.Lisa Schroeder
10
When he opens the door, I step in and an army of memories comes at me from all sides.Lisa Schroeder
11
He was a character. A character who should still be here. Damn it all to hell. He should still be here.Lisa Schroeder
12
I look at him and realize, maybe I overreacted. Maybe more than once.Lisa Schroeder
13
I know it's not the end...it's only just the beginning.Lisa Schroeder
14
Lunch can wait. Everything can wait. Time to run.Lisa Schroeder