Quotes From "Because I Am Furniture" By Thalia Chaltas

I never realizedtill nowhow hard the brain has to workto make the body do what it asks. Or maybe how hard the body has to workto ignorethe brain. Thalia Chaltas

Yaicha is named after a songby some group from the last century called the Pousette- Dart Band.Something about a girl, a candle in the falling rain shining amidst the pain. I kind of surprise myselfwhen I can picture Yaicha as that candle. My father named Yaicha after the "haunting melody." I wonder if he ever listenedto the lyrics. Thalia Chaltas

Or maybe I am justoutside enough, being the footstool observing from the corner, that I have a view of reality. Thalia Chaltas

Not scared. But excited in thatjiggering-on-too-much-hot-saucekind of waythat it's time tostep outof my old framework, raw and amorphous, to become something I've never thought of before. Thalia Chaltas

Then why don't I tell on him? If they don't, why don't I?Because.Because I am safe this way, silent unnoticed. Thalia Chaltas

I got an A on the third quiz in American history, an A, dammit. Last time I got a Bup from a Cand my father said, "if you can get a Cyou can get a B, if you can get a Byou can get an A."-I got an Aand my father said, "grades don't mean anything. Thalia Chaltas

You've always been skinny, always will." I can feeleachreclusivebonepoke through, the bones of Embarrassment, Anger, Relief.I push some back in, but leave Angersticking out. Thalia Chaltas

Why am I not good enough? At least he loves Darren and Yaichain some wayeven if it's horrible, he shows them attentionand I am furniture I get nothing nothingnothingno thing Thalia Chaltas

I think that is supposed to be good, that I get less from him but I feel worthless. Thalia Chaltas

Yaicha and Darren told me that I wasthe mailman's child, and I got so angry, stalking away, hot steam in my ribs. Yaicha and Darrentold me that I was the mailman's childand now I am thinkinghow wonderful it would beto havethe mailman asmy father. Thalia Chaltas