It's as if I had been going downhill when I thought I was going uphill. That's how it was. In society's opinion I was heading uphill, but in equal measure life was slipping away from me.. And now it's all over. Nothing left but to die! " "So what's it all about? What's it for? It's not possible. It's not possible that life could have been as senseless and sickening as this. And if it has really been as sickening and senseless as this why do I have to die, and die in agony? There's something wrong. Maybe I didn't live as I should have done?" came the sudden thought. "But how can that be when I did everything properly?" he wondered, instantly dismissing as a total impossibility the one and only solution to the mystery of life and death. Leo Tolstoy
About This Quote

It is impossible to know what it is all for. However, the author of this quote had no way of knowing that his life had just ended. At the time, he was alive, well, and doing things right. It was only after the fact that he realized that he had lived a life full of purposelessness.

The author did not die with any regrets or questions unanswered. He died with answers to all of his questions, but none were answers. He did not find what he had been looking for, but he did find something else entirely.

To him, an equal amount of purposelessness still existed in the world around him.

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