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I never realizedtill nowhow hard the brain has to workto make the body do what it asks. Or maybe how hard the body has to workto ignorethe brain.Thalia Chaltas
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Yaicha is named after a songby some group from the last century called the Pousette- Dart Band.Something about a girl, a candle in the falling rain shining amidst the pain. I kind of surprise myselfwhen I can picture Yaicha as that candle. My father named Yaicha after the "haunting melody." I wonder if he ever listenedto the lyrics.Thalia Chaltas
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Or maybe I am justoutside enough, being the footstool observing from the corner, that I have a view of reality.Thalia Chaltas
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Not scared. But excited in thatjiggering-on-too-much-hot-saucekind of waythat it's time tostep outof my old framework, raw and amorphous, to become something I've never thought of before.Thalia Chaltas
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Then why don't I tell on him? If they don't, why don't I?Because.Because I am safe this way, silent unnoticed.Thalia Chaltas
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I got an A on the third quiz in American history, an A, dammit. Last time I got a Bup from a Cand my father said, "if you can get a Cyou can get a B, if you can get a Byou can get an A."-I got an Aand my father said, "grades don't mean anything.Thalia Chaltas
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You've always been skinny, always will." I can feeleachreclusivebonepoke through, the bones of Embarrassment, Anger, Relief.I push some back in, but leave Angersticking out.Thalia Chaltas
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Why am I not good enough? At least he loves Darren and Yaichain some wayeven if it's horrible, he shows them attentionand I am furniture I get nothing nothingnothingno thingThalia Chaltas
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I think that is supposed to be good, that I get less from him but I feel worthless.Thalia Chaltas
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Yaicha and Darren told me that I wasthe mailman's child, and I got so angry, stalking away, hot steam in my ribs. Yaicha and Darrentold me that I was the mailman's childand now I am thinkinghow wonderful it would beto havethe mailman asmy father.Thalia Chaltas