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Depression isn't a war you win. It's a battle you fight every day. You never stop, never get to rest. It's one bloody fray after another.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I saw the world from the stars' point of view, and it looked unbearably lonely.Shaun David Hutchinson
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We remember the past, live in the present, and write the future.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Dreams are hopeful because they exist as pure possibility. Unlike memories, which are fossils, long dead and buried deep.Shaun David Hutchinson
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We're not words, Henry, we're people. Words are how others define us, but we can define ourselves any way we choose.Shaun David Hutchinson
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That's the problem with memories: you can visit them, but you can't live in them.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Because you can only die once but you can suffer forever.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I was diamond on the outside, and I would not break. Inside, though, I was already broken.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Popularity is teenage heroin.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Knowing leads to caring.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Don't get so focused on where you're going that you forget the people you're travelling with. There's no point reaching a destination if you arrive alone.Shaun David Hutchinson
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But that's the difference between people and stars. A star's light still shines even if there's no one to see it, but without someone to remember Jesse, his light will disappear.Shaun David Hutchinson
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How ugly we must look to them, spilling light into every dark corner to push back the shadows, blinding ourselves to the true beauty of emptiness.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Milkshakes make the world seem less shitty.Shaun David Hutchinson
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History is just a way of keeping score, but it doesn't have to be who we are.Shaun David Hutchinson
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It's a date."" It's a cookie."" It's a cookie date.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Bonding over illegal drugs hadn't magically solved our problems,Shaun David Hutchinson
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The tallest slugger touched my forehead, and I ignited like a sparkler on the Fourth of July. Shards of dazzling light rippled under my skin. I was the constellation Grus. The Trifid Nebula. I was the Big Bang, expanding endlessly through time and space forever." I thought I was dying. That I was going to expire on a cold slab, trapped inside an UFO, my body filled with every light that had ever existed. I couldn't imagine a better way to die. .Shaun David Hutchinson
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Just the perfect peace of nothingness. That's what I believed.Shaun David Hutchinson
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That's the problem with memories: you can visit them but you can't live with them.Shaun David Hutchinson
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No doesn't mean to Marcus what it means to those without money and a car.Shaun David Hutchinson
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There's an amazing world out there for you to discover, Henry Denton, but you have to be willing to discover yourself first.Shaun David Hutchinson
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It was chance. A random series of events given meaning by somone desperate to prove there's a design to our lives. That the minutes and hours between our birth and death are ore than frantic moments of chaos. Because if that's all they are - if there are no rules governing our lives - then our entire existence is a meaningless farce.Shaun David Hutchinson
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It begins when he’s still a man in a suit, doing the kinds of boring things that men in suits do. The things that no one writes about because they know that boys don’t really have nightmares about clowns or three-eyed tentacled beasts that rise from deep within volcanoes. When boys wake up screaming in the night, it’s because they know that, one day, they’ll have to grow into men who wear suits and spend their days doing boring things that cause them to rot from within, so their skin withers and blackens and cracks, leaking out their juices until they finally lie decaying and putrid, forgotten by a world that deemed them unworthy of remembering. It begins there because it’s important to know that a superhero with no past began as a man with no future. .Shaun David Hutchinson
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Sometimes when a star collapses, it becomes a fiery supernova, but other times the core density is so great that it quietly consumes itself, forming a black hole, its gravitational pull so terrible that nothing can escape, not even light. You can't see a black hole, but if you look closesly, you can witness its effect on those objects nearest to it - the way it changes the orbit of solar systems or draws off a star's light a little at a time, sucking it down to its dense center, Maybe we couldn't have stopped Jesse's collapse, but we should have seen it happening.Shaun David Hutchinson
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A star's light still shines even if there's no one to see it, but without someone to remember Jesse, his light will disappear.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I was surrounded by heaven. The sun, the moon, the earth, and all those living stars. They wen't static like in pictures taken from impossibly far away- they breathed, they glowed. They were future and past, possibility and memory. They were beautiful. "I never knew there were so many, " I whispered. We are merely pieces of a grander design, even more insignificant than I imagined. When the earth ceases to be, all those stars will shine on. Out deaths will mean nothing to them." I feel so small." No one replied. I wondered as I watched the stars, really seeing them for the fist time, whether they could see me, too. .Shaun David Hutchinson
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We have to watch Nana's life slipping away from her like a forgotten word. I thought I understood what's happening to her, but this isn't like being robbed a penny at a time. Memories aren't currency to spend; they're us. Age isn't stealing from my grandmother; it's slowly unwinding her.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I hate Jesse for leaving me behind. If he asked, I would have walked into the air with him.Shaun David Hutchinson
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While there are memories I wish I could dispose of, sometimes my memories are the only things that keep me sane.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Your entire sense of self-worth is predicated upon your belief that you matter, that you matter to the universe. But you don't. Because we are the ants.Shaun David Hutchinson
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The universe is more than thirteen billion years old. What is the value of a single kiss compared to that?Shaun David Hutchinson
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I wasn't sure what was happening between us, but I didn't want it to happen without me.Shaun David Hutchinson
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We're not words...we're people. Words are how others define us, but we can define ourselves any way we choose.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Sometimes I think gravity may be death in disguise. Other times I think gravity is love, which is why love's only demand is that we fall.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I could write my name across the sky, and it would be in invisible ink.Shaun David Hutchinson
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As human beings, we're born believing that we are the apex of creation, that we are invincible, that no problem exists that we cannot solve. But we inevitably die with all our beliefs broken.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Dreams are hopeful because they exist as pure possibility.Shaun David Hutchinson
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We aren't just defined by who we are, but by who are friends are. It's funny that we put so much importance on something that wont mean shit once we graduate.Shaun David Hutchinson
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She's the gristle stuck between Time's teeth, and I love her for it.Shaun David Hutchinson
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And I stood there and took it because I was an object. We were all objects to Marcus McCoy.Shaun David Hutchinson
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How can you make an informed decision about whether to save the world if you never leave your tiny part of it?Shaun David Hutchinson
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If a kid looks like he doesn't give a shit, it's not because he doesn't believe in himself anymore; it's because no one else believes in him.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I held on to the hope that one day I would grow up and have all the answers, just like my parents. As I look over at Arnold and then at Father Mike, I realize that adults are just as fucked as the rest of us. No one really grows up. No one unravels all of life's many mysteries. They just grow older and become better liars.Shaun David Hutchinson
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I felt as if each person within visual range were slowly draining the life from me. We were all connected, and the more them there were, the more I wanted to crawl under a table and cry.Shaun David Hutchinson
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We are merely pieces of a grander design, even more insignificant than I imagined. When the earth ceases to be, all those stars will shine on. Our deaths will mean nothing to them.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Making out with Marcus had always felt like a race to the finish line, but with Diego I felt like I'd already won.Shaun David Hutchinson
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Only someone who cares could fake not caring so well.Shaun David Hutchinson