27 Quotes & Sayings By Richard Siken

Richard Siken is a New York-based writer and artist. He draws inspiration from the history of the blues, jazz, and rock & roll, with a particular interest in West Coast sounds. His work has appeared in Cigar Aficionado, The New York Times magazine, Smoke + Mirrors, one of Montana's most read newspapers, and other publications. He is a 2016 inductee into the Society of Illustrators' Illustrator's Hall of Fame.

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You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for. Richard Siken
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Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking, “I am falling to the floor crying, ” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it – you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well. Richard Siken
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If you love me, Henry, you don’t love me in a way I understand. Richard Siken
This is where the evening splits in half, Henry, love...
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This is where the evening splits in half, Henry, love or death. Grab an end, pull hard, and make a wish. Richard Siken
Here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed.
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Here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed. Richard Siken
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We pull our boots on with both handsbut we can't punch ourselves awake and all I can do is stand on the curb and say Sorryabout the blood in your mouth. I wish it was mine. I couldn't get the boy to kill me, but I wore his jacket for the longest time. Richard Siken
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A man walks into a bar and says: Take my wife—please. So you do. You take her out into the rain and you fall in love with her and she leaves you and you’re desolate. You’re on your back in your undershirt, a broken man on an ugly bedspread, staring at the water stains on the ceiling. And you can hear the man in the apartment above you taking off his shoes. You hear the first boot hit the floor and you’re looking up, you’re waiting because you thought it would follow, you thought there would be some logic, perhaps, something to pull it all together but here we are in the weeds again, here we arein the bowels of the thing: your world doesn’t make sense. And then the second boot falls. And then a third, a fourth, a fifth. A man walks into a bar and says: Take my wife—please. But you take him instead. You take him home, and you make him a cheese sandwich, and you try to get his shoes off, but he kicks you and he keeps kicking you. You swallow a bottle of sleeping pills but they don’t work. Boots continue to fall to the floor in the apartment above you. You go to work the next day pretending nothing happened. Your co-workers ask if everything’s okay and you tell them you’re just tired. And you’re trying to smile. And they’re trying to smile. A man walks into a bar, you this time, and says: Make it a double. A man walks into a bar, you this time, and says: Walk a mile in my shoes. A man walks into a convenience store, still you, saying: I only wanted something simple, something generic… But the clerk tells you to buy something or get out. A man takes his sadness down to the river and throws it in the river but then he’s still leftwith the river. A man takes his sadness and throws it away but then he’s still left with his hands. . Richard Siken
He could build a city. Has a certain capacity. There’s...
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He could build a city. Has a certain capacity. There’s a niche in his chestwhere a heart would fit perfectlyand he thinks if he could just maneuver one into place —well then, game over. Richard Siken
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You're trying not to tell him you love him, and you're trying to choke down the feeling, and you're trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you've discovered something you don't even have a name for. Richard Siken
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Who am I? I'm just a writer. I write things down. I walk through your dreams and invent the future. Sure, I sink the boat of love, but that comes later. And yes, I swallow glass, but that comes later. Richard Siken
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I know history. There are many names in historybut none of them are ours. Richard Siken
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But damn if there isn't anything sexier than a slender boy with a handgun, a fast car, a bottle of pills. Richard Siken
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Here is the cake, and here is the fork, and here's the desire to put it inside us, and then the question behind every question: What happens next? Richard Siken
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Dear Forgiveness, you know that recentlywe have had our difficulties and there are many things I want to ask you. Richard Siken
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I wanted to explain myself to myself in an understandable way. I gave shape to my fears and made excuses. I varied my velocities, watched myselves sleep. Something's not right about what I'm doing but I'm still doing it-- living in the worst parts, ruining myself. My inner life is a sheet of black glass. If I fell through the floor I would keep falling. The enormity of my desire disgusts me. Richard Siken
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From the landscape: a sense of scale. From the dead: a sense of scale. Richard Siken
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Paint ghosts over everything, the sadness of everything. We made ourselves cold. We made ourselves snow. We smuggled ourselves into ourselves. Haunted by each other’s knowledge. To hide somewhere is not surrender, it is trickery. All day the snow falls down, all night the snow. I try to guess your trajectory and end up telling my own story. We left footprints in the slush of ourselves, getting out of there. Richard Siken
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Wanna make a monster? Take the parts of yourself that make you uncomfortable – your weaknesses, bad thoughts, vanities, and hungers – and pretend they’re across the room. It’s too ugly to be human. It’s too ugly to be you. Children are afraid of the dark because they have nothing real to work with. Adults are afraid of themselves. Richard Siken
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He had green eyes, so I wanted to sleep with him. Green eyes flecked with yellow, dried leaves on the surface of a pool. You could drown in those eyes, I said. The fact of his pulse, the way he pulled his body in, out of shyness or shame or a desire, not to disturb the air around him. Everyone could see the way his muscles worked, the way we look like animals, his skin barely keeping him inside. I wanted to take him home, and rough him up and get my hands inside him, drive my body into his like a crash test car. I wanted to be wanted, and he was very beautiful, kissed with his eyes closed, and only felt good while moving. You could drown in those eyes, I said, so it's summer, so it's suicide, so we're helpless in sleep and struggling at the bottom of the pool. Richard Siken
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There’s a dream in thespace between the hammer and the nail: the dream ofabout-to-be-hit, which is a bad dream, but the nail willtake the hit if it gets to sleep inside the wood forever. Richard Siken
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The blond boy in the red trunks is holding your head underwater because he is trying to kill you, and you deserve it, you do, and you know this, and you are ready to die in this swimming pool because you wanted to touch his hands and lips and this means your life is over anyway. You’re in eighth grade. You know these things. You know how to ride a dirt bike, and you know how to do long division, and you know that a boy who likes boys is a dead boy, unless he keeps his mouth shut, which is what you didn't do, because you are weak and hollow and it doesn't matter anymore. . Richard Siken
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We clutch our bellies and roll on the floor... When I say this, it should mean laughter, not poison. Richard Siken
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What is a ghost? Something dead that seems to be alive. Something dead that doesn't know it's dead. Richard Siken
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He was pointing at the moon, but I was looking at his hand. Richard Siken
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There is an empty space next to you in the backseat of the station wagon. Make it the shape of everything you need. Now say hello. Richard Siken
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How we rolled up the carpet so we could dance, and the days were bright red, and every time we kissed there was anotherappleto slice into pieces. Look at the light through the windowpane. That means it's noon, that meanswe're inconsolable. Tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us. These our bodies, possessed by light. Tell me we'll never get used to it. Richard Siken