72 Quotes & Sayings By Michelle Hodkin

In my rush, I hadn’t tied my shoelaces. Noah was now tying them for me. He looked up at me through his dark fringe of lashes and smiled. The expression on his face melted me completely. I knew I had the goofiest grin plastered on my lips, and didn’t care. “There, ” he said as he finished tying the laces on my left shoe. “Now you won’t fall.” Too late. Michelle Hodkin

You can't hurt me the way you think you can. But even if you could? I would rather die with the taste of you on my tongue than live and never touch you again. I'm in love with you, Mara. I love you. No matter what you do. Michelle Hodkin

I want YOU to be the one wanting me first. Pushing me first. Kissing me first. Don't be careful with me, " he said. "Because I won't be careful with you. Michelle Hodkin

Everyone's a little crazy. Some people just hide it better than others. Michelle Hodkin

Two seconds later, the sound of an alarm filled my ears. ''What did you do?'' I said over the noise as he backed up towards the bathroom door. ''The girl who gave you the note?'''' Yes..'''' I caught her staring at my lighter.'' I blinked. ''You gave a child, in a psych ward , a lighter?'' His eyes crinkled at the corners. ''She seemed trustworthy.'''' You're sick, '' I said, but smiled.'' Hey, nobody's perfect. '' Noah smiled back. Michelle Hodkin

It doesn’t matter what we are. It matters what we do. Michelle Hodkin

Wait, " I said as Noah slipped a book from a shelf and headed toward the door. "Where are you going?"" To read?" But I don't want you to. "But I need to go home, " I said, my eyes meeting his. "My parents are going to kill me."" Taken care of. You're at Sophie's house." I loved Sophie."So I'm..staying here?"" Daniel's covering for you." I loved Daniel."Where's Katie?" I asked, trying to sound casual." Eliza's house." I loved Eliza."And your parents?" I asked." Some charity thing." I loved charity." So why are you going to read when I'm right here? . Michelle Hodkin

You could start a fire with the heat between you two."" You're mistaking bitter animosity for heartfelt affection. Michelle Hodkin

Is there any point asking what you're going to make me do on Sunday?''Not really.' Okay. 'Is there any point asking what you're going to do to me?' He grinned wickedly. 'Not really.' Fabulous. 'Does it involve the use of a safe word?'' That will depend entirely on you.' Noah moved impossibly closer, just inches away. A few freckles disappeared into the scruff on his jaw. 'I'll be gentle, ' Noah added. My breath caught in my throat as he looked at me from beneath those lashes, ruining me. I narrowed my eyes at him. 'You're evil.' In response, Noah smiled, and raised his finger to gently tap the tip of my nose. 'And you're mine, ' he said, then walked away. . Michelle Hodkin

Noah shifted on the bed, and the oddest crunching sound came underneath him. I looked, really looked, at the bed for the first time." What, " I asked slowly, as I eyed the animal crackers strewn all over it, "the hell?"" You were convinced they were your pets, " Noah said, not even trying to suppress his laughter. "You wouldn't let me touch them. Michelle Hodkin

I planted a kamikaze kiss on Jamie’s cheek.“ F U C K, ” he shouted, wiping it off. “What if you killed me! ” He threw a Skittle at my face. It hit my forehead.“ Ow! ”“ Taste the rainbow bitch. Michelle Hodkin

Have you made any other friends since we've been here?" I gave him the death stare. "Yes, actually."" Who? I want a name."" Jamie Roth.""The Ebola kid? I heard he's a little unstable."" That was one incident. Michelle Hodkin

I slipped in and out of consciousness as time stretched and flowed around me. Dreams and reality blurred, but I liked the dreams better. Noah was in them. I dreamed of us, walking hand in hand down a crowded street in the middle of the day. We were in New York. I was in no rush– I could walk with him forever–but Noah was. He pulled me alongside him, strong and determined and not smiling. Not today. We wove among the people, somehow not touching a single one. The trees were green and blossoming. It was spring, almost summer. A strong wind shook a few steadfast flowers off of the branches and into our path. We ignored them. Noah led me into Central Park. It was teeming with human life. Bright colored picnic blankets burst across the lawn, the pale, outstretched forms of people wriggling over them like worms in fruit. We passed the reservoir, the sun reflecting off its surface, and then the crowd began to thicken. They funneled into a throbbing mass as we strode up a hill, over and through. Until we could see them all below us, angry and electric. Noah reached into his bag. He pulled out the little cloth doll, my grandmother’s. The one we burned. . Michelle Hodkin

I read the title from the cover. ' 'The joy of.. crap.' ' I read the rest of the full title of the thick, nondescript volume to myself and felt myself redden. Noah turned over on to his side and said with mock seriousness, 'I have never read 'The Joy Of Crap'. Sounds disgusting.' I blushed deeper. 'I have, however, read 'The Joy Of Sex.' ' He continued, a smile transforming his face. 'Not in a while, but I think it's one of those classics you can come back to again.. and again. Michelle Hodkin

I pointed to a low bowl filled with what purported to be stew, but then Noah said, “Are you goingto point, or are you going to eat?”“ I just like to know what I’m putting in my mouth before I swallow.” Noah arched an eyebrow, and I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. Michelle Hodkin

He shrugged. “I have a stomach thing. Don’t get close.”“ Well, now you’ve spoiled everything, ” I said casually, working hard to fake it. “I was planning to seduce you in the broom closet.” I pointed. “Right there.” A joyless smile appeared on Jamie’s lips. “We are far too screwed-up for a goddamned lovetriangle.” That’s my Jamie. Michelle Hodkin

Asscrown, " I muttered under my breath as I headed to my next class. I wasn't proud of swearing at a complete stranger, no. but he started it. Noah matched my pace. "Don't you mean 'assclown'?" He looked amused." No, " I said, louder this time. "I mean asscrown. The crown on top of the asshat that covers the asshole of the assclown. The very zenith in the hierarchy of asses, " I said, as though I was reading from a dictionary of modern profanity." I guess you nailed me then. Michelle Hodkin

I was just going to say it reminds me of the symbols on a family crest.” Noah stopped mid-stride, and turned very slowly. “We’re not related.”“ I know, but–”“ Don’t even think it. Michelle Hodkin

I want to shake them for their ignorance and scream that their Sistine Chapel is filled with cracks. Michelle Hodkin

The two of us snuggled like quotation marks in his room full of words. Michelle Hodkin

Thanks. Seriously, you must have better things to do with your life than waste it on the hopeless?'' I've already learned Parseltongue. What else is there?'' Elvish. Michelle Hodkin

You are like fire; you will burn wherever you go. If contained, channeled, you can bring light, but you will also always cast a shadow. Michelle Hodkin

They lie, you know. It's not easier to ask for forgiveness. Not even a little. Michelle Hodkin

For some reason I think of the first time I saw her, kicking the shit out of the vending machine that refused to release her candy. Before that day, every hour of my life had been exactly like the one before it. Relentlessly boring. Painfully monotonous. But then she walked out of my waking nightmare and into my life, a complete mystery from Second One. Her presence was a problem I needed to solve, a problem that finally interested me. And then, somehow, she made me interested in myself. Mara began as a question I needed to answer, but the longer I'd known her, the less I felt I actually knew. She was constantly surprising, infinitely complex. Unknowable. Unpredictable. I have never met anyone more fascinating in my life, and all the time in the world wouldn't be enough to ever know her. Michelle Hodkin

If you fight yourself, you will lose, and fighting leaves scares. Michelle Hodkin

I'd wasted so much time wishing I could be different, wishing I could change things, change myself... I thought it would be easier to be someone else than to be who I was becoming, but I didn't think that anymore Michelle Hodkin

I know what I can do to a girl with a word, a look, a touch. And I want to do them all to her. Michelle Hodkin

Something inside of me began to tear. Michelle Hodkin

You want me as much as I want you. And all I want is you." My tongue warred with my mind. "Today, " I whispered. Noah stood slowly, his body skimming mine as he rose. "Today. Tonight. Tomorrow. Forever. Michelle Hodkin

My name is not Mara Dyer, but my lawyer told me I had to choose something. A pseudonym. A nom de plume, for all of us studying for the SATs. I know that having a fake name is strange, but trust me–it’s the most normal thing about my life right now. Even telling you this much probably isn’t smart. But without my big mouth, no one would know that a seventeen-year-old who likes Death Cab for Cutie was responsible for the murders. No one would know that somewhere out there is a B student with a body count. And it’s important that you know, so you’re not next. Michelle Hodkin

You can’t hurt me the way you think you can. But even if you could? I would rather die with the taste of you on my tongue than live and never touch you again. I’m in love with you, Mara. I love you. No matter what you do. Michelle Hodkin

Have you kissed many boys before?" he asked quietly. His question brought my mind back into focus. I raised an eyebrow. "Boys? That's an assumption." Noah laughed, the sound low and husky. "Girls, then?"" No."" Not many girls? Or not many boys?"" Neither, " I said. Let him make of that what he would." How many?" "Why–" "I am taking away that word. You are no longer allowed to use it. How many?" My cheeks flushed, but my voice was steady as I answered. "One." At this, Noah leaned in impossibly closer, the slender muscles in his forearm flexing as he bent his elbow to bring himself nearer to me, almost touching. I was heady with the proximity of him and grew legitimately concerned that my heart might explode. Maybe Noah wasn't asking. Maybe I didn't mind. I closed my eyes and felt Noah's five o' clock graze my jaw, and the faintest whisper of his lips at my ear." He was doing it wrong. . Michelle Hodkin

I was going to kiss him, and I was going to regret it. But at that moment, I couldn't bring myself to care. Michelle Hodkin

I was warned about you, you know." And with that half-smile that wrecked me, Noah said, "But you're here anyway. Michelle Hodkin

I laughed as I twisted to face him and raised my arm to hit in one move. He caught my wrist and my laugh caught in my throat. A mischievous grin curved my mouth as I raised my other hand to hit him. He reached over me and caught that wrist too, gently pinning my arms above my head as he straddled my hips. The space between us boiled my blood. Michelle Hodkin

Noah's eyes held my face. I swallowed hard. The juxtaposition of him sitting in a room full of people while staring at no one but me was overwhelming. Something shifted inside of me at the intimacy of us, eyes locked amid the scraping of twenty graphite pencils on paper. I shaded his face out of nothingness. I smudged the slope of his neck and darkened his delinquent mouth, while the lights accented the right angle of his jaw against the cloudy sky outside. I did not hear the bell. I did not hear the other students rise and leave the room. I did not even notice that Noah no longer sat at the stool. Michelle Hodkin

Does anyone know how to start a fire?" Blank stares. "So we can't start a fire, " [Jamie] said. "We can't fly. We can't create a force field. We are the most bullshit superheroes. Michelle Hodkin

Jamie said in that voice of his, "You never saw us."" I never saw you, " the driver repeated, sounding dazed. "You drove this astonishingly hot underwear model from south Texas. You wanted to lick his abs." "I wanted to lick his abs."" You're such an asshole, " Stella muttered as she climbed out of the cab. Michelle Hodkin

The idea was a splinter in my mind. Always there, always stinging, even when I wasn't conscious of it. Even when I wasn't thinking about it. Michelle Hodkin

You’re so calm, ” I said out loud. “It’s like you don’t need it.” Need me, I didn’t say. But I could tell by the way his delinquent smile softened that he knew what I meant. Noah moved forward, toward me, next to me then, the slender muscles in his arms flexing with the movement. “I’m not sure you can appreciate how much I want to lay you out before me and make you scream my name. Michelle Hodkin

While Daniel disappeared into his room, probably to limn the contours of some exquisite constellation of philosophical nonsense for his internship applications and gasp in the throes of his overachieving OCDness. Michelle Hodkin

Sometimes, the biggest secrets you can only tell a stranger. Michelle Hodkin

Stella turned to us. "One of us is going to have to swim it. Any volunteers?" Jamie shook his head. "Not it. Sharks, first of all, and second of all, sharks"- The Retribution of Mara Dyer Michelle Hodkin

And that for every negative event or coincidence that has happened since, imagining that you triggered them, that you made them happen makes you feel like you possess a degree of control that you don't have. Michelle Hodkin

If I were to live a thousand years, Iwould belong to you for all of them. If we were to live a thousand lives, I would want to make you mine in each one. Michelle Hodkin

It's like you're a mirror and you show me who I want to be, instead of who I am. Michelle Hodkin

You think it can't get worse than wanting someone and not having them, but it can. You can want someone, have them, and want them more. Still. Always. You can never get enough. Michelle Hodkin

The ability to heal does not make one good any more than the ability to kill makes one evil. Kill the right people, and you become a hero. Heal the wrongs ones, and you become a villain. It is our choices that define us, not our abilities Michelle Hodkin

I kind of want to see Mara Crucio their asses. Michelle Hodkin

I must be made of nothing to feel so much nothing. Michelle Hodkin