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What's a dementor?" I mean, I can't even. "Nora, you are no longer my sister."" So it's some Harry Potter thing, " she says.Becky Albertalli
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I take a sip of my beer, and it's - I mean, it's just astonishingly disgusting. I don't think I was expecting it to taste like ice cream, but holy fucking hell. People lie and get fake IDs and sneak into bars, and for this? I honestly think I'd rather make out with Bieber. The dog. Or Justin.Becky Albertalli
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Wow, is that Katniss making out with Yoda?Becky Albertalli
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It's more that I want to leap in and say certain things and do certain things, but I always seem to hold myself back. I think a big part of me is afraid.Becky Albertalli
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Did you just tell us you're gay?" Asks Nick"Yes.""Okay, " he says. Abby swats him. "What?""That's all you're going to say? Okay?""He said not to make a big deal out of it, " Nick says. "What am I supposed to say?"" Say something supportive. I don't know. Or awkwardly hold his hand like I did. Anything"Nick and I look at each other." I'm not holding your hand, " I tell him, smiling a little." All right"--he nods--"but know that I would. .Becky Albertalli
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We are out and we are alive, and everyone in the universe is out here right now.Becky Albertalli
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I have a sneaking suspicion that you’re not 100% committed to your Oreo diet.Becky Albertalli
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They put me in a box, and every time I try to nudge the lid open, they slam it back down. It’s like nothing about me is allowed to change.Becky Albertalli
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He tells me to pick the music. I’m not sure if he knows that handing me his i Pod is like handing me the window to his soul.Becky Albertalli
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But I'm tired of coming out. All I ever do is come out. I try not to change, but I keep changing, in all these tiny ways ..... And every freaking time, I have to reintroduce myself to the universe all over again.Becky Albertalli
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I remember exactly how it felt to see that first message from him in my inbox. It was a little bit surreal. He wanted to know about me. For the next few days at school after that, it felt like I was a character in a movie. I could almost imagine a close-up of my face, projected wide-screen. It's strange, because in reality, I'm not the leading guy. Maybe I'm the best friend.Becky Albertalli
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I don't know. There's just something kind of mortifying to me about the intensity of those feelings. I remember them so clearly.Becky Albertalli
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From: [email protected] To: [email protected] Date: Jan 7 at 7:23 AMSubject: Re: Really?On the Tumblr-you mean creeksecrets? ...But I really don't think I'm wrong. Jacques a dit. Right?-BlueSo, Yeah, I've been careless. I guess I left a trail of clues. and I shouldn't be surprised that Blue put them together. Maybe I kind of wanted him to. Jacques a dit is "Simon Says" in French, by the way, And it's obviously not as clever as I thought it was. .Becky Albertalli
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Why would I want to watch other people kissing, " I say, "when I could be kissing you?Becky Albertalli
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I guess what I mean is that sometimes it seems like everyone knows who I am except me.Becky Albertalli
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I can’t seem to shake this perpetual awareness of being Molly.Becky Albertalli
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And it's almost too perfect. Almost too Disney.Becky Albertalli
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I was basically born knowing how to casually stalk people on social media.Becky Albertalli
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I feel like I'm supposed to make some comment to underscore the ridiculousness of it all, but honestly? It's sort of nice not to have to be cynical for a change. I guess it feels like I'm a part of something.Becky Albertalli
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It's stillness and pressure and rhythm and breathing.Becky Albertalli
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I think the way I feel about the internet is the way some people feel about the ocean. It's so huge and unknowable, but also totally predictable. You type a line of symbols and click enter, and everything you want to happen, happens. Not like real life, where all the wanting in the world can't make something exist.Becky Albertalli