49 Quotes & Sayings By Anne Sexton

Do you like me?” No answer. Silence bounced, fell off his tongueand sat between usand clogged my throat. It slaughtered my trust. It tore cigarettes out of my mouth. We exchanged blind words, and I did not cry, I did not beg, but blackness filled my ears, blackness lunged in my heart, and something that had been good, a sort of kindly oxygen, turned into a gas oven. Anne Sexton

Anne, I don't want to live. Now listen, life is lovely, but I Can't Live It. I can't even explain. I know how silly it sounds. but if you knew how it Felt. To be alive, yes, alive, but not be able to live it. Ay that's the rub. I am like a stone that lives. . locked outside of all that's real. Anne, do you know of such things, can you hear???? I wish, or think I wish, that I were dying of something for then I could be brave, but to be not dying, and yet. and yet to [be] behind a wall, watching everyone fit in where I can't, to talk behind a gray foggy wall, to live but to not reach or to reach wrong. . to do it all wrong. believe me, (can you?). what's wrong. I want to belong. I'm like a jew who ends up in the wrong country. I'm not a part. I'm not a member. I'm frozen. Anne Sexton

Wanting to Die Since you ask, most days I cannot remember. I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage. Then the almost unnameable lust returns. Even then I have nothing against life. I know well the grass blades you mention, the furniture you have placed under the sun. But suicides have a special language. Like carpenters they want to know which tools. They never ask why build. Twice I have so simply declared myself, have possessed the enemy, eaten the enemy, have taken on his craft, his magic. In this way, heavy and thoughtful, warmer than oil or water, I have rested, drooling at the mouth-hole. I did not think of my body at needle point. Even the cornea and the leftover urine were gone. Suicides have already betrayed the body. Still-born, they don't always die, but dazzled, they can't forget a drug so sweetthat even children would look on and smile. To thrust all that life under your tongue! –that, all by itself, becomes a passion. Death's a sad Bone; bruised, you'd say, and yet she waits for me, year after year, to so delicately undo an old wound, to empty my breath from its bad prison. Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet, raging at the fruit, a pumped-up moon, leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss, leaving the page of the book carelessly open, something unsaid, the phone off the hookand the love, whatever it was, an infection. Anne Sexton

Saints have no moderation, nor do poets, just exuberance. Anne Sexton

Live or die, but don't poison everything.. Well, death's been herefor a long time --it has a hell of a lotto do with helland suspicion of the eyeand the religious objectsand how I mourned themwhen they were made obsceneby my dwarf-heart's doodle. The chief ingredientis mutilation. And mud, day after day, mud like a ritual, and the baby on the platter, cooked but still human, cooked also with little maggots, sewn onto it maybe by somebody's mother, the damn bitch! Even so, I kept right on going on, a sort of human statement, lugging myself as if I were a sawed-off bodyin the trunk, the steamer trunk. This became perjury of the soul. It became an outright lieand even though I dressed the bodyit was still naked, still killed. It was caughtin the first place at birth, like a fish. But I play it, dressed it up, dressed it up like somebody's doll. Is life something you play? And all the time wanting to get rid of it? And further, everyone yelling at youto shut up. And no wonder! People don't like to be toldthat you're sickand then be forcedto watchyoucomedown with the hammer. Today life opened inside me like an eggand there insideafter considerable digging I found the answer. What a bargain! There was the sun, her yolk moving feverishly, tumbling her prize --and you realize she does this daily! I'd known she was a purifierbut I hadn't thoughtshe was solid, hadn't known she was an answer. God! It's a dream, lovers sprouting in the yardlike celery stalksand better, a husband straight as a redwood, two daughters, two sea urchings, picking roses off my hackles. If I'm on fire they dance around itand cook marshmallows. And if I'm icethey simply skate on mein little ballet costumes. Here, all along, thinking I was a killer, anointing myself dailywith my little poisons. But no. I'm an empress. I wear an apron. My typewriter writes. It didn't break the way it warned. Even crazy, I'm as niceas a chocolate bar. Even with the witches' gymnasticsthey trust my incalculable city, my corruptible bed. O dearest three, I make a soft reply. The witch comes onand you paint her pink. I come with kisses in my hoodand the sun, the smart one, rolling in my arms. So I say Liveand turn my shadow three times roundto feed our puppies as they come, the eight Dalmatians we didn't drown, despite the warnings: The abort! The destroy! Despite the pails of water that waited, to drown them, to pull them down like stones, they came, each one headfirst, blowing bubbles the color of cataract-blueand fumbling for the tiny tits. Just last week, eight Dalmatians, 3/4 of a lb., lined up like cord woodeachlike abirch tree. I promise to love more if they come, because in spite of crueltyand the stuffed railroad cars for the ovens, I am not what I expected. Not an Eichmann.The poison just didn't take. So I won't hang around in my hospital shift, repeating The Black Mass and all of it. I say Live, Live because of the sun, the dream, the excitable gift. Anne Sexton

Many women are singing together of this: one is in a shoe factory cursing the machine, one is at the aquarium tending a seal, one is dull at the wheel of her Ford, one is at the toll gate collecting, one is tying the cord of a calf in Arizona, one is straddling a cello in Russia, one is shifting pots on the stove in Egypt, one is painting her bedroom walls moon color, one is dying but remembering a breakfast, one is stretching on her mat in Thailand, one is wiping the ass of her child, one is staring out the window of a train in the middle of Wyoming and one is anywhere and some are everywhere and all seem to be singing, although some can not sing a note. Anne Sexton

Those moments before a poem comes, when the heightened awareness comes over you, and you realize a poem is buried there somewhere, you prepare yourself. I run around, you know, kind of skipping around the house, marvelous elation. It’s as though I could fly. Anne Sexton

Put your mouthful of words away and come with me to watch the lilies open in such a field, growing there like yachts, slowly steering their petals without nurses or clocks. Anne Sexton

I am, to be sure, afraid that if you knew me that you wouldn’t love me. But this must be faced… I fear it in any relationship. Thus I am perhaps afraid to reveal facts about things…or to say too much for fear if I make too much noise you’ll drift away, pull down the shade of your ivory tower…and after that. Afraid, I guess, that I’ll loose you… I keep losing people. Anne Sexton

The rest of my room is book shelves. I hoard books. They are people who do not leave. Anne Sexton

And what of the dead? They lie without shoesin the stone boats. They are more like stonethan the sea would be if it stopped. They refuseto be blessed, throat, eye and knucklebone. Anne Sexton

I’d won the worldbut like aforsaken explorer, I’d lostmy map. Anne Sexton

CourageIt is in the small things we see it. The child's first step, as awesome as an earthquake. The first time you rode a bike, wallowing up the sidewalk. The first spanking when your heartwent on a journey all alone. When they called you crybabyor poor or fatty or crazyand made you into an alien, you drank their acidand concealed it. Later, if you faced the death of bombs and bulletsyou did not do it with a banner, you did it with only a hat tocover your heart. You did not fondle the weakness inside youthough it was there. Your courage was a small coalthat you kept swallowing. If your buddy saved youand died himself in so doing, then his courage was not courage, it was love; love as simple as shaving soap. Anne Sexton

Taking into consideration all your lovelinesswhy can't you burn your bootsoles and yourdraft card? How can you sit there saying yesto war? You'll be a pauper when you die, soreboy. Dead, while I still live at our addresss. Oh my brother, why do you keep making planswhen I am at seizures of hearts and hands? Come dance the dance, the Papa-Mama dance;bring costumes from the suitcase pasted Ille de France, the S.S. Gripsholm. Papa's London Harness case he took abroad and kept i our attic laced with old leather straps for storage and hisscholar's robes, black licorice - that metamorphosiswith it's crimson blood. "The Papa and Mama Dance . Anne Sexton

We were fair game but we have kept out of the cesspool. We are strong. We are the good ones. Do not discover us for we lie together all in green like pond weeds. Hold me, my young dear, hold me. Anne Sexton

Depression is boring, I thinkand I would do better to makesome soup and light up the cave. Anne Sexton

ExI feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all. . Anne Sexton

God went out of me as if the sea dried up like sandpaper, as if the sun became a latrine. God went out of my fingers. They became stone. My body became a side of mutton and despair roamed the slaughterhouse. Anne Sexton

I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly. No answers, darling. At all. . Anne Sexton

I find now, swallowing one teaspoon of pain, that it drops downward to the past where it mixes with last year’s cupful and downward into a decade’s quart and downward into a lifetime’s ocean. I alternate treading water and deadman’s float. Anne Sexton

But suicides have a special language. Like carpenters they want to know which tools. They never ask why build. Twice I have so simply declared myself, have possessed the enemy, eaten the enemy, have taken on his craft, his magic. Anne Sexton

Give me your skin as sheer as a cobweb, let me open it up and listen in and scoop out the dark. Anne Sexton

No. Not really red, but the color of a rose when it bleeds. Anne Sexton

It is snowing and death bugs meas stubborn as insomnia. Anne Sexton

I like you; your eyes are full of language."[ Letter to Anne Clarke, July 3, 1964.] Anne Sexton

Clover['s] eyes are full of language. Anne Sexton

Quite collected at cocktail parties, meanwhile in my head I'm undergoing open-heart surgery. Anne Sexton

Pain engraves a deeper memory. Anne Sexton

He turns the key. Presto! It opens this book of odd taleswhich transform the Brothers Grimm.Transform?As if an enlarged paper clipcould be a piece of sculpture.( And it could.) Anne Sexton

Fee-fi-fo-fum, now I'm borrowed, now I'm numb. Anne Sexton

Each night I am nailed into placeand forget who I am. Daddy? That's another kind of prison. It's not the prince at all, but my fatherdrunkeningly bends over my bed, circling the abyss like a shark, my father thick upon melike some sleeping jellyfish. What voyage is this, little girl? This coming out of prison? God help -this life after death? Anne Sexton

Sometimes the soul takes pictures of things it has wished for, but never seen. Anne Sexton

Love your self's self where it lives. Anne Sexton

It doesn't matter who my father was it matters who I remember he was. Anne Sexton

Death's in the good-bye. Anne Sexton